Do you ever feel like you're forgetting something really important? (all post concussive people nod emphatically)
Last night I had a dream that we owned a horse and it was my job to care for it. Then, one day while sitting on the couch, I all of the sudden remembered all these things. So I rushed to the stable and found our dead horse. (really dead too, eyes staring at me, flies swarming, it was a scary site)
The image was so vivid and so upsetting and so unshakable I turned to Neil at 3:06 and said "hey, handsome... hey, wake up.... I just need to double check something, we don't, um, own a horse.... right?"
Then at 3:12 with the feeling of dropping the ball still heavy upon me, and sleep a long abandoned option, I had to go for one more try "and Neil... hey... we don't own anything else I can kill right? not like children or hamsters or things I can mistakenly abandon?"
**For those of you wondering, the answers are as follows: No, we don't own horses, children, or hamsters. Yes, we own things I can and do kill, so I apologize to all my houseplants. and Yes, my husband patiently answers me in the middle of the night when I ask (what feels to me) very rational questions. He also adds a kind, "if you had a bad dream then come over here" snuggle. So lets all cross our fingers that I don't accidently forget to feed him, I like him a lot.